I am always wanting to dress occasion appropriate. I think it's because my mom always knew what to wear, and how to wear it. It was never over done, and never flashy. It was always simple, and very classy. I would watch her get ready for football games and she wore simple red tennis shoes, and a red polo. Dinner dates with my dad when we were young were always a nice dress, that was enough to stand out, but simple enough to not take away form the best part of her: her face. I love that about her.
So, I am occasion conscious. I really do not like the feeling of wearing jeans when everyone is in formal wear. I don't like even more when everyone is in jeans and I accidentally put on my prom dress. I just dont like to stick out, especially if the crowd, the event, the everything is unfamiliar. So I really try and fit the mood, I get embarrassed when someone tells me I look "sooooo nice" dragging out the emphasis like usually I am wearing a trash bag. I also get embarrassed when people make comments about what I look like in my clothes. Skinny. Toned. Filled Out. AHHHH. There is something about those comments that make me feel like there was a certain way that I should be looking in my clothes and I missed it, I have dressed my fat count, bones, and and skin in the wrong proportions.
LIKE ITS MY FAULT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?
So this brings me to my conflicted understanding concerning the activity I participated in today: A lingerie shower. It is totally the season of my life right now. Many of my friends are getting married and people are throwing and giving showers, and to the ladies that have decided not to have sex until we are married we just have no idea what people wear or don't wear, where things go, where they don't go and well really anything about sex in general. So we throw lingerie showers, cause I guess at least we will be dressed, or undressed occasion appropriate.
7 years ago